Wednesday, November 21, 2007

dream from 11 18 07

lots of stuff happens in this dream but this is the only thing that i remember clearly.

*paul sitting on a low wall, hugging me. it's a long tender sort of hug. i touch the back of his neck.

Monday, November 19, 2007

dream from 11 16 07



sleeping on sophie's floor air mattress going down slowly.

* dreaming about sophie and this strange new place that i'm in that i've never been before. mixed into the dream is nicole and work and all that shityness. something about the way i was on the air mattress, and the deflating, my brain kept thinking that a cat was getting on/off the bed. funky huh?

dream from 11 14 07


things happen before that i can't remember.

* pauolie jett and i are sitting in this gallery space. ethan walks thro the front door. he wants to burn a cd. i walk with him to the back of the artless gallery. ehtan's physical form changes, but he stays the same person. he turns into a cross between jon/max. he hugs gives me a half hug first, then a full hug. he gives me a kiss and tells me he'll call me tonight so we can talk about hanging out. he explains that he can't call me at work b/c there's something fishy going on with a girl he works with. he's acting like he has to call me in secret. is she his girlfriend/wife/secretary? waking up disappointed.

dream from 11 13 07



*jake reading in sunroom. his shirt is open, in the dream he has a very hairy chest.

what else happens in this dream? why do i dream such freaky shit.

dream from 11 11 07

* i'm trying to decide if i'm going to rent a room from this guy. the room is tiny but it's a good deal. he reminds me of john's friend. the room is kinda in a business. is it in a salon?

*jett and i are going to have a lust filled shower, colleen is there. jett spins me round in some sort of foreplay. we are in a strange little room with a shower to our left. there's a bunch of vibrators and neckties and other silly things on the bed. we don't end up having sex cause jett is dicking around. is colleen invited or is she just taking a shower. do lots of people show up?

* i'm in high school. i don't always take the bus, but i do on this day. when i discover that ethan drives the bus that i'd take, i decide that i should ride the bus more often. instead of taking me home the bus goes to de vargas. at the mall is another bus in the south east parking lot. the bus doesn't move it stays there, it's like a hang out place. in the bus are a bunch neo hippie goth punks. everyone wearing clothing with skulls and bones on it. gail and sialia are on the bus. sialia's has a skull painted on her face, it looks really ghetto. gail and i wink at each other. gail first.



ehtan parks the bus on its side. i find a strange lighter in the bus. it's like a spark plug/zippo. i take it and show it to someone near by, paul and jett? i think one or the other of them says something about having one kinda like it.





* racine is at gail and zack's house. gail and i are playing inside with racine. zack is outside yelling and babbling really loudly. i step outside to see what's up. zack's carrying on. spouting crazy talk to a committee sitting around him in a large circle. i walk inside shaking my head. i explain to gail and sialia (who just showed up) that it's louder inside than out. and that zack impermeable. 'use you indoor voice' sia and i joke. racine has gone to bed since i've been outside. i'm sad. i wanted to hang out with her more. she's sleeping in my old room. is there rope tried around the door? john leaves to get indian food. did i want to go with him? do i go with him?



when you wake up to joy division, you think the world is ending.

portland 11 18 07



Sunday, November 18, 2007