dream from 10 24 07

* trying to use all the bathrooms at backroad pizza. they are all dirty, toilets filled with poop. ( i woke up thinking, that's really strange. then that day i used a toilet that had poo in it, well before i flushed it.) the city has this strange lost boys/ blade runner feel to it. i'm looking for someone. am i with colleen, or am i looking for her. she gets assassinated and i end up with her ID. am i good or bad?

dream from 10 20 07

* dreaming about cruses.

dream from 10 19 07

* watching a movie it's like a model train set. it's like a war with trains, airplanes, ect. very ' little neno in slumber land' . even tho it's like a movie, i can walk into it, but not interact with it. yet little bombs are falling close to me. i think paul and jett are with me. we leave the bizarre movie/ war thingy and go to john's house. his peeing outside his house. his cock doesn't look like it should, even tho i've never seen it before. are we at a party at john's? do i talk to someone. what happens?

dream fro 10 13 07

* getting into a brawl with john, near aleta's station. john slips his sissors around his fingers and slashes my knee like he's using a switch blade. something else happens in this dream but all i remember is a little guest house, with a shrink in it.

dream from 10 07 06

* booking a room at a hotel like the one we stayed in Colorado. But it has the prices of the grant hotel in San Francisco. It’s beautiful and more serene then the one we stayed at. They have all the prices on a big paper chart.

dream from 10 06 07

* Long journey to the ‘farm house’. It remind me of sasha’s relative’s farm house. There are two little boys waiting for ‘mom’ and ‘dad’. I’m attracted to someone but who is it? I go looking for ‘mom’ and ‘dad’. I go up a flight of stairs and open the door that leads to a bedroom. ‘mom’ and ‘dad’ are laying in bed snuggling. It’s really sweet. I tell them that the boys are waiting for them down stairs. Are there pigs outside?

* jeanna and joel are at the salon. Joel is all fat and old and balding. He is wearing some really ugly Hawaiian shirt. Jeanna is gloating about how busy her salon is. Looking at pictures of joel on myspace, having a hard time believing it’s him.

dream from 10 04 07

*sialia and jett fighting.

dream form 10 02 07

* jaws induced dream in a vast swimming pool. i'm swimming with my two children. as my older child swims away from me blood sweeps toward me. there's blood on my babies head, i'm coughing up blood. i wrap my baby up and rush to the bathroom. there are two blondes doing their makeup in the bathroom. they both give me the shit look from hell. is my head shaved? i'm throwing up blood in the basin, the basin comes out of the wall, kinda like a clam shell. it's very futuristic looking. i'm really embarrassed that i'm throwing up, and that my baby's head is bleeding. the vapid tall blondes make me fell like total shit. sculpture



*i'm in high school. i'm in a park, there is a gigantic dragon sculpture. the head of dragon is a tentacle with an eyeball at the end of it. does part of it look like a mushroom too? like at the base of the tentacle ? i'm meeting sophie and hannah at a show, in the park. the band is playing behind chicken wire, just like in the blues brothers. Instead of joining them at the show I go to the highschool, to kidnap jett. ( yes in the dream he is still in high school) jett is in class or detention . I hide in a little closet till his teacher is distracted then I grab him. To escape we jump over hedges ( is the park near the high school?) I see a bunch of people jump over them before me. Other people ditching I guess. But when I jump over them I fall into a junkyard. I fall onto an old rusted out car. The junkyard proprietor is the captain from jaws. He is trying to kill me. We battle with kitchen knifes. I win. do I kill him, or just fuck him up?

*the last part of my dream is in a super fancy house.
I think I have kids too. What happens?

dream from 09 29 07

* i had very convoluted dreams last night.
* i'm at the salon, but the salon is in a different place, part of the time. there's something going on that i don't understand. are john and i having a tiff? or not? gail is in the 'other' salon. she's asking me why the salon needs to be open anymore, cause the school was closed. i didn't know how to explain it to her. do i live at the salon? is john lying on the table at some point? when i'm back in the real salon, i'm watching over it. baby sitting. the salon is empty i'm lying on the couch which is against the west wall. i'm drinking '131' bacardi rum. it's really the 151 proof. people start flocking in. i hide the bottle under the couch with a blanket.
*going over to jett's house to do something. ( we live together in real life) the outside of his house reminds me of sena plaza. i think he lives with quinn (my ex bastard) and filip ( jett's boss) is there are an opening at their house? or are we going to an opening? gail and zack have something to do with it. my room is in the house. i'm looking for something cute to wear. sialia has left a ton of dresses in 'my closest'. one of them reminds me of a dress i have, so i go looking for the my dress in the room. all the while fighting with quinn about what a punkass he is. we are going back and forth like cats and dogs. jett wants us to stop fighting.
* dreaming about being a writer.

dream from 09 28 07

* jett and i trade houses with someone. the couple reminds me of monica and bram. one of them is bram. they have a cat. ( which makes no sense cause they hate cats.) their cat has extremely long legs. bram is illustrating how long it's legs are based on where they come up to him on his leg. it has it's lower leg tucked under it's body and it comes up his knee. in the same dream, the couple is different, but the scenario is the same. we are in the back bathroom, i'm explaining that you have to jiggle the handle to stop the toilet from running. oh and also the sink drips. we've all devised a plan to put a bottle of booze in the tank to help the running.
* later in the dream i'm at a party. i'm black and pregnant. yeah i don't remember.

dream from

* having a lucid dream about climbing a tree, a really big one. i'm scared but then realize that i'm dreaming and want to go higher. i'm hoping that i can jump off the very top of the tree and fly. is the tree bare of leaves?
* paulie ( john's ex boyfriend) plays a joker character in this dream. the fool. the meaningless entertainment. he brings me food or something from his new job. but he still owes me for something. he wants to take me 'up' to del charo. ( it's like the scape needle, in my dream) i tell him he'll still owe me even if he take me up to the top.

dream from 09 26 07

* i'm in portland visiting sophie. i find this lingerie store to go into. sophie doesn't want to go in she says she won't find anything she wants in there. so we don't go in. it's kinda ghetto, in waking life i don't know why i wanted to go in. everything is pink and shiny, with dim lights.


* somewhere with jett. jett wants to buy a piece of sialia's art. she won't let him. the art isn't very cool. it's a ring suspended on wood. the wood is painted all pastel colors, kinda like clouds. did this happen in the past? cause now we are all in this little shop together. including jake, sialia's boy toy. my endless poster in hanging on the door with something covering it up. but what? sialia is being a real bitch to me. she's not talking/looking to/at jett.
* we are driving in a new city in this dream, but where?



* visiting daniel and pam but we are in my parents house. pam is trying to figure out something for me to do while i'm there. she suggests going to the 'pink panther store' outside denver. i'm not very interested but pretend to be. gail and zack are trying to convince daniel to give me a computer. i tell daniel that i'm not asking him for anything.
* destroying sophie's business for her; because she asked me too.
*sending people hatch chile, but i have the wrong address.
* funky haircut. to long around crown.

dream from 09 25 07

* i'm in the produce section of trader joe's. i'm trying to get to the carrots. there's this stupid raver girl ( she's around town, but i don't really know her. she not cute, like my example) in my way. she's naked and apparently deaf to my wish to get past her. her cart is filled with carrots. WHAT DOES IT MEAN!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?

dream from 09 23 07

* gail and i are in this extravagant eastern orthodox church. it's covered in paintings of saints with lots of gold leaf. it's stunningly beautiful. i think one of the painting is of mary and baby. her gown was deep red. ( i can't look at too many pictures to post on the blog because i fear forgetting what it looked like in the dream. sorry. ) there is a massive auditorium with stadium setting. the baloney has a curtain over it. does the performance happen in there sometimes? when you desire to leave the church one of the novices has to rush you out in secret. you scamper along with them till you reach the outside. why must you do this, is someone watching? i see that gail is making her escape. i decide to follow in her footsteps. the young novices that helps me slip out is wearing lime green/blue converse. he reminds me of a boy i went to high school with, i didn't like him much tho, not as much as i like this kid. gail and i decide to kidnapped/rescue the priest to be. the car in parked up past the cross of the mortars. are we in the old honda? the young man and i are sitting in the back as gail swings the car around in get away fashion. the boy and i are holding hands. i think to myself this is the most contact he has probably ever had with a girl. it's intense to comprehend that this might be the most action he has ever gotten. i feel that it's wrong and very, very, exciting.


i wake up and have to go to the rest room.



* when i reenter the dream i'm back in the auditorium, watching a play or something. in the dream i understand that i've already done this. that it's sort of a rerun, or deja vu.



* i'm somewhere strange trying to get away from the place or a person. is it an airport? i'm missing parts of this dream that i know are interesting. i'm checking my email, the email is interactive. so as i read something i am doing it or see it. lenora has sent me a film that i was in a long time ago. as i watch the film, it is actually happening. her and i pole dancing around in a loft space. the other part of her film is 'set' in my very punkrock style stage from high school. i have long light purple hair. i have no memory of this in the dream. ( cause it never really happened) i think i'm looking in the mirror with my strange hair. i open another email. in the email brianna is telling me that she never really got married. she's not even dating that guy. they thought i would be a funny joke. the dream made more sense than reality. i still don't understand why bri is married (to that guy). * shrug*